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So I’m not writing this because i’m really depressed or anything like that.Right now I couldn’t cry if I wanted to.I feel like this is all I can do.I have always let the people be close to me.I fear of losing them.I gave them everything as much as I can.But i am soo unlucky that i lose my friends at some point of time(dats for sure).This is happening to me in every stage of my life.I have many people around who love me,but i don't have that feel.I feel like i am a burden to everyone.I wonder why i even try to be happy.But it ends in the worst manner.I feel that i mean nothing in anyones life.